The Catherinette Chronicles

Leave it to me to find myself in this jacked up situation.  Last night I had a really hard time sleeping.  Sure part of it was due to the situation in which I found myself, but the major impact was due to knowing that CHL and DSE want me to come back.

Long story short, friend went in, it came out that everyone knew and they wanted me to come back.  They know everything, every single part of the story.  All of them and they still want me to come back anyway.  CHL even told my friend that she should tell me that he said I should come back.  Seriously?  Seriously?!?!  I’m still so embarrassed by the whole debacle but would totally want to go.

It makes me embarrassed and elated all at the same time.  It’s a strange mix of emotions.

The crush is gone, I’ve moved on now-but still I want to go back.

But the thought of walking through those doors and into a situation where everyone knows everything that I felt and the stupid crap I wrote makes me want to throw myself down my flight of stairs.  Blogging is a strange thing.  I write the truth and put it out there for strangers to read.  The realization that people I know have read it makes me uncomfortable.  Do I change what I write about?  Do I just accept that this is likely to happen?

I don’t know.  Here’s what I do know, I want to go back but can’t bring myself to do it.